I am a class topper. No arrogance. No showing off. Just an experience. I get good grades in Maths . And yet I am not taking it in 11th. And thats my biggest fault.
a) I am a 15 year old
b) I am 15 yrs old 1 month and 5 days.
c) I am apparently not old enough to make my own decisions except my timetable for the pre boards
d) I get good grades in Maths
e) I am a good student overall and get good often written on my nb with red (just this year its a remark on Microsoft Teams)
f) I am taking Commerce.
So no reason I shouldn’t be taking Maths right? Well I had one simple reason: I liked Legal Studies more. That doesn’t mean I hate or score less in Maths. What it does mean is that I can’t get admission in DU under Commerce degrees. And the only more stressful fact than this is that you need more than 99% in the best of four for admission in LSSR( i forgot the exact percentage shayad 100 tha sorry I am too lazy and especially amused to check up) .
Okay so till now I was not a topic of discussion among the 4 log kya kahenge . And guess what I have been included in that. Obviously a top scorer decided to take Commerce( Yes I Didn’t Take Science), decided she didn’t want to be a doctor in AIMS or a scientist in NASA and along with doing that I have left the subject of the millenium Maths out.
So yes I proudly welcome myself as a member of the 4 log kya kahenge hot gossip. And guess what I am proud of that( though I have already mentioned that) . Guptaji ki beti finally bigad gayi by not taking up maths.
For those who think that I am exaggerating, I have people come to talk to me and convince me to not take this hopeless decision which is going to destroy my career, my life, my reputation and my parents’ reputation. 4 log kya kahenge!!!!
And right now none of my teachers know of my decision. Lets see what their reaction will be. But back to the point. People with whom I have never had a meaningful conversation about even my periods or my teenage crush sat with me and told me how I was making a mistake by NOT TAKING UP MATHEMATICS.
Because again I get good grades and I need a good salary which I will not get as I am not taking up maths. And my reputation- well I have already lost it since I didn’t take Science. Okay so a nerd has lost her reputation other than just being somehow uncool. Interesting!
So I miss out on a good education hence a good job a good salary a good marriage a good life etc. Etc. Etc.
But what about everyone else who have lost their capacity to apparently mind their own business and tell me that I am destroying my life. Cause P.S. my life was already destroyed like all of you when I was born in this society. I am just trying to better it by doing what I want.
So people, small issue, but it should have a big discussion because it should. I am ambitious. I want money and I am not shamed to admit it. But I want a happy life where even if I have regrets its about the choices I took. And 4 logon ko topics dene mein thoda toh mazza aata hai.
So yes I have researched and made this decision very carefully examing all possible outcomes. Baaki kya outcome hoga kuch pata nahi because that is life.
Just needed to share this personal experience. Lately a lot of my blogs revolve around subjects, online classes, exam stress and a student’s deepest fear a.k.a Boards. But Atleast I have somewhere to let it out unlike many others……
And that’s good because now slowly and slowly life will start again….and this time more difficult than ever. But I guess I have cricket, blogging, friends amd family. And that’s all that matters.
Okay thoda zyaada philosophical ho gaya. But please lets remove the virus from this world. No I am not talking about Covid-19( yes that needs to be removed ASAP lets just pray and wear masks) . Here I actually talked about the virus from 3 idiots. Lets never let the Rancho in all of us die.
4 log kya kahenge bahut soch liya,
Kyonki zindagi 4 baar nahi milegi.
( I know that’s lame but couldn’t help writing that)